Anxiety

So one week from today my mom and brother and nephew arrive...and then the next day my other brother flies in. I'm feeling so anxious about having my family back together again...and in MY house. I just hope we can all get along for the 4 days they will be here...that's been really tough in the past.

You see my mom babies both my brothers and even when they make the wrong choices in life she stands behind them 100%. This irritates me so much...I feel like if maybe she helped to guide them instead of blaming all their problems on the other ppl involved...case in point my brother and his ex and all that has come from that...he beat her up and she (finally) got wise and left...there are no ifs, ands, or buts about it...she's moved on and I for one am very happy for her...my mom thinks she's wrong for moving on so quickly. But who am I to judge? She lived a long, tough 7 years with my brother who I know firsthand is not easy to live with.

I hope he comes here with a new outlook on life...he hasn't seen the boy since he was about 4 years old...and has never met the boyfriend...so you can see where my anxiety lies. I hope he realizes he is coming into our house and will need to show respect.

I'm probably working myself up far too much over this...and hope it will go very smoothly. We have plans to go out on the Saturday...I've hired a sitter for the boy and his cousin and we'll head out for some drinks and dancing. My mom suggested it might be good to stay busy and be out and about...that might not work for this homebody lol.

This Friday since the boy has ditched me...the boyfriend and I will have a date day. I'm very excited. We'll go out for breakfast and then spend the day together...it would be nice if the weather warmed up (and the snow melted) so we could go for a long walk in the park or something like that.

Movie day will be Saturday when the boy is not busy with his friends.