Monday, November 15, 2010

Finally...Halloween pics...and other random tidbits

As I sat down to blog this morning I realized I failed to share the boy's Halloween pics here...enjoy...

In other news I just came off of a kid free weekend. My mom was in the City to do some shopping and visiting and told me to feel free to take off for the weekend while she spent time with the boy. Being still in the somewhat beginning stage of our relationship me and my new BOYFRIEND (yes he's moved up from "the guy I'm seeing" to having an official title lol) spent the weekend together and believe it or not it was our first time without either of our kids! How absolutely marvelous it was.
We went to the movies Friday night...back to his place for drinks. Did some Christmas shopping on Saturday...early start for me I'm so not organized and I'm a procrastinator so I usually don't start until the beginning of December lol.
Saturday night he met one of my best friends and her boyfriend for the first time. We had appies and drinks at a nice little Mexican restaurant and then went out to the bar where my friend's boyfriend was playing (he plays in and manages a band). It was a great time and although the NEW boyfriend (maybe he'll be "NB" for now lol) is not really into the bar scene he made the most of it.
The boy is dying to set up our Christmas tree and I have to say I'm counting down the days to when I can start decorating for Christmas...although it's hard at times trying to find that perfect gift for everyone and making sure there is enough money to do so...I have to admit that the Christmas season is my favourite. I love everything about it...except of course the cold temperatures...if we could have snow and mild temps I'd be a very happy girl!!!

Wednesday, October 27, 2010

Deep Thoughts...

So what defines a relationship these days? I have been seeing T now for 2 months yet I wonder if he would call me his girlfriend and/or if I should be referring to him as my boyfriend and not just "the guy I'm seeing". I'm in no rush to define things...but at the same time we've hung with each other's families...spent the last 5 nights together...our boys fight like siblings yet are the best of friends...sure feels like a relationship...

I find myself thinking some pretty deep thoughts...I don't question that I'm happy cause he really is the sweetest, kindest, most considerate man I've ever been with...I just wonder if I'm ready...but who am I to sabotage a good thing just because the timing might not be quite right! Right?

The built in 'family' suits me quite nice...it's really the first time I've dated a guy that has partial custody of his child (week on, week off) - I love his little boy and I can tell he's growing quite fond of me too...wanting to show me all kinds of things that he thinks are neat and cool. I've heard many step-parenting woes through the years and can imagine that if this relationship continues to get serious we will have our ups and downs where that is concerned...but honestly I feel like I'm up for the challenge...

Can I just say that the sexiest thing is watching a man be an outstanding father! Oh and it doesn't hurt he can cook too! lol.

In other news we are gearing up for Halloween - must carve pumpkin...maybe tonight! The boy has his costume and will be dressing up as "Rex" from Star Wars...he's a clone trooper if you didn't know...not to be confused with a storm trooper...as the boy would say.

School is still going well. My boy continues to amaze me with his participation is extra curricular activities at school. Currently he's in handball and is still enjoying being a patrol crosser.

I guess that's my update for now...I would like to promise that I will blog more regularly...but life keeps getting in the way...I hope I still have some readers!

Wednesday, October 13, 2010

What is new in the world of Mel?


It's been awhile since I've posted...I don't know what it is...I have the time but sometimes I'm just too lazy to do anymore than read all of your blogs...sometimes I'm even too lazy to comment and I hate that!

So since I posted last - I put myself on Plenty of Fish (dating site for those that don't know) because I was lonely and looking for friends...nothing serious just someone to hang out with...I met 2 guys from there and they both turned out to be a little bit crazy...I mean I know I'm a pretty good catch but you can't want to spend every single waking moment with me after 2 dates...I just don't roll that way! I am a single mom...newly single at that...and I need time for ME sometimes too.

So needless to say after trying that route and failing...oh and having the ex-boyfriend find my profile and essentially stalk me on there...yeah decided it wasn't the route I wanted to take...

BUT there is someone in my life...we are taking it very very very slow...he's been a friend for years and in fact was my neighbour up until 2 years ago...the ex-boyfriend was extremely jealous of our friendship and forbid it...needless to say as soon as (hmmm what should I call him...lol) "T" found out that the ex-boyfriend and I split up he called me and we've been hanging out ever since. Our boys are friends from when we were neighbours and so far the boy approves of our 'dating'. He really only found out we were more than friends last weekend when he caught us holding hands lol.

I won't change my Facebook relationship status just yet...I just don't feel like I'm quite there yet...I've been calling it "almost a relationship" for about 3 days now...I guess I'm just scared that it's too soon.

The ex-boyfriend is still in touch on a weekly basis even though I've asked him to please just leave me be...he's having a very hard time accepting that it's over with us and there is no talking things out anymore...he crossed far too many lines.

So that's my 'love life' in a nutshell.

Now on to the boy - he's doing great in school - slightly sassy and his teacher does not approve which is great...I've found in the past that his teachers have let him get away with far too much! But besides the sassy attitude he's doing well academically and has joined every club the school offers - he immensely enjoyed Cross Country Running Club and is now in Homework Club and Handball Club. I love that he's so involved in the school. Oh and he's patrolling on his own too. At first he was peeved that they had to spend the whole month of September training and he wanted to stop being a patroler...but now that he's allowed to do it all on his own he's enjoying it alot!

Monday, September 13, 2010

OMG - 4th grade...

My boy - as you embark on 4th Grade I am in shock that we are here already...I remember 4th grade...it was a whole lot of fun. I loved my teacher and she loved me...this was the year I really started to notice boys...me and my friends used to chase the cute boys and try and kiss them...lol. Maybe you'll have much the same experience...on the very first day of school last Thursday you had to help your poor little friend into the office because the girls were chasing him and he fell and cut his lip wide open...poor kid!!!! You've always been there to help when your friends need you...that must be a quality you get from me...I'm a helper!

You have expressed interest in the cross country running club...which starts today I might add...and you are also going to be a patrol crosser at lunchtime. Just don't go getting too busy...enjoy these years...they fly by so fast!!!

I love you kiddo...you and me...we make a great team...with you on my side I can conquer anything...and I hope you feel that same "safe place" in me.

Friday, August 27, 2010

Let's all Cheers to having lots and lots of fun!!!

Summer is quickly coming to an end...it's been a life changing summer for me...as you all know from my last post. It's been just over two weeks since the ex-boyfriend and I have spoken...and let me tell you it's been a very fun and exciting two weeks...which just reaffirmed for me that I had done the right thing in ending it. As hard as it was...and as hard as it is to be a single mom yet again...it's what is right!

We spent last weekend at my friend's cabin and had a blast. Kids up late...adults up drinking all hours of the night...no worries and no stress...

I'm slowly entering the dating scene again...it's nice to flirt with random guys...haha. Don't get me wrong someday I want to meet the one for me...but right now I'm okay with just having some FUN.

School starts here in just over a week...the boy is less than impressed...I guess by 4th grade school isn't so fun and exciting anymore...I always liked it anyway because it meant new clothes...boys don't seem to care so much about that though...lol.

Monday, August 16, 2010

Sometimes the road of love...

Leads to heartbreak...

I haven't posted in a couple of weeks...and when I have posted it feels like I haven't posted anything of any substance. The reason for that is...I have been very unhappy...life in general became very overwhelming and my relationship with the boyfriend has not been going well.

Last week we had a very dramatic argument - in turn he left the house in huff...being a weekday morning I had to leave for work and did just that...he proceeded to tell me that if I didn't leave work and let him back in the house (had forgotten his keys in said huff) he was calling the police on me...for what reason I'm not really sure...did he really think in his irrational mind that they'd go and break the door down and let him in???

Anyway - the police came to my workplace - it was VERY embarrassing and I will not be forgiving the boyfriend (or ex-boyfriend as he will now be referred to) anytime in the near future. He is currently at his mother's and trying everything in his power to win me back...but quite frankly although I didn't talk about it alot here on this blog we've had a very overly emotional relationship right from the start...he knows how to push my buttons and I his...we fight like cats and dogs...more now than ever...do I really want the boy growing up thinking 'home is a tense place'...no I don't...I want home to be a happy, fun place...well as much as it can be anyway.

No I haven't removed his picture from my header...I just haven't had time yet...but that will be happening soon...

Back to single mommyhood I go...it's scary as heck...but I think I can do it...

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

Sunday, August 1, 2010

It's taken forever to get these posted...and now I have even more pics I want to share...love summah time!

Bon Jovi Pics!!!

This first one shows you just how huge the outdoor stadium is...concert attendance was 46,000 ppl...crazy eh?

Here's me showing off my new pic camera and of course the Bon Jovi t-shirt...love it...

Oh he's so dreamy....

One of my besties "E"

My other bestie "P"
Again...had to just keep taking pics cause he's so damn fine...

Next up...our day at the Festival yesterday...we had so much fun! We all rode the ferris wheel for the very first time...each and every one us has a fear of heights but we conquered that fear and had a nice enjoyable ride! And I convinced the boy to ride the Tilt-a-Whirl with me...love that ride!!!

Wednesday, July 21, 2010

Sunday, July 18, 2010

Well it's Official...

I am 30...and if yesterday was any indiciation of how my 30s are going to be...well let's just say I had a blast and it may very well go down as the best birthday EVAH!!!

The evening started out with some ribs for dinner that the boyfriend had smoked for 6 hours on Friday...they were falling off the bone and yummy yummy! As you can tell...the boyfriend literally devours them...this picture totally cracks me up...and yes a few drinks had been consumed by this point (lol).

Then I set off for my friend E's house...for some lovely wine...and a pretty little happy birthday tiara...I have no pictures of me wearing it but I'm sure they will surface at some point!

There were balloons:

and even a cake...YUM
Oh and did I forget to mention the silly string in the face??? I was pulling it out of my hair for hours!

We primed up pretty good and then were off to Bon Jovi...I got some great pictures there but you'll have to stay tuned...
Oh and I did get a new camera for my birthday...I need to play with the settings and figure them all out because a few of my pics came out very blurry yesterday...but in true Mel form I never read the manual....just figured I'd be able to figure it all out on my own...it's a pretty little pink camera...love it! Oh and I got new bedsheets too...love those too!

Wednesday, July 14, 2010

Not quite Wordless Wednesday

Ain't it funny that as I posted my 9 year old boy's birthday pictures to Facebook this afternoon that I realized this is the first time I've actually had photos of his birthday party...The disposable camera that houses his 7 year party is sitting on top of my cupboard still waiting to be developed...I'm ONLY 2 years late...

Then last year...the stupid batteries died in the camera even though I know I had charged them the very night before...sometimes I hate technology!!!

So this year...although they aren't the best pics (I've hinted to the boyfriend it's definitely time for a new camera...hello my birthday is SATURDAY...start shoppin'! lol) I'm so glad to be able to share a few.

(ignore the stupid date stamp that shouldn't have appeared...again with stupid and old technology!)

Tuesday, July 13, 2010


Boy it sure has been a whirlwind of a few weeks! 2 camping trips and a trip to my friend/co-worker's cabin made it quite busy. Don't get me wrong we all had a blast, swimming and fishing and enjoying the nice weather...everything has been perfect...well except those darn pesky mosquitos...

So this week I'm relaxing (somewhat)...the boy has ditched me for all the fun activities daycare has in store and I have decided since it's a rainy week...to take a few days and try and organize our basement which is full of a whole lot of junk!

I thought I'd be bored with the boy out of the house and the boyfriend working crazy hours...but in all honesty I'm loving this 'me' time. When I'm not packing for camping trips and/or cleaning house I've been watching movies and lots of them...girlie movies lol. Something I rarely treat myself to.

Only 5 more days till I turn 30 and me and my girls go to see Bon Jovi...woot woot! I'm sooooooooooooooooo flippin' excited!

Monday, June 28, 2010

Oh Summer how I love thee

Summer brings us nice warm sun
For swimming, fishing, and lots of fun
For finding seashells in the sand
For sunbathing to get a tan
To do all these things and more
At the beach and seashore

~author unknown

So tomorrow marks the last day of school for my boy - yes we have school right up until the very end of June here. I start holidays for 2.5 weeks on Thursday and we are heading out on our very first camping trip of the season that day...usually by now we've been out camping at least once or twice...but alas having a child in sports hindered us from having a free weekend for the entire month of June!

This shall prove to be an interesting camping trip...my mom, brother and nephew are tagging along. I'm sure we'll have a blast as long as the kids don't fight too much ;)

I plan to spend much of my vacation outdoors soaking up some rays...so please let the every other day rainstorms halt right this very second...we've seen enough rain...well...for the rest of the Summer!

As you can probably tell my very favourite thing to do in the Summer is camp and sit by the water at the beach. I hope I have plenty of time to do that this Summer.

What about you...what is your favourite summer time activity?

Thursday, June 17, 2010

It Happened at Work

It's been awhile since I've participated in Mama Kat's Writers Workshop...and I miss it...it's always a fun and interesting post...usually something I wouldn't otherwise think to blog...so here goes...

The Prompts:

1.) The popular girls.
2.) It happened at work.
3.) “How long until you realized you had no talent or patience for this? Tell the story (true or fiction) of trying to learn a new talent or hobby that you only pursued briefly.”
4.) “Who first told you that it’s not nice to stare? Write about a time you stared when you maybe shouldn’t have, or a time when someone stared at you.”
5.) Describe a happy reunion.


This week I'm going with:

2.) It happened at work.

So this is one that goes down in the "Fillmore Funny Farm" history...a story that gets told often when we are at Christmas parties and a little tipsy ;)

For the record, I work as a legal assistant for 3 lawyers...we are an office about 80 support staff all women...with about 60 lawyers mostly men...just to set the premise!

Anyway...one day about 3 years ago we had a new receptionist start...she was young (maybe 22) and seemed pretty put together. Caught on quickly and showed up for work again the next day...all was well...until...

She went for lunch...and I guess decided to have a drink...and then another...and then another...(we speculate she must have had quite a bit in the hour she was gone)...she called up to work and said 'she was running late' in very slurred speech that her relief couldn't even understand her.

Apparently then things got ugly...she had to come up a flight of stairs to the elevator bank...and apparently fell...and was bleeding at the knee...and someone notified security...and she didn't know they were following her...and then they somehow lost her...and then she came back into work and walked up to the front desk to take her seat. The poor cute girl that was covering her lunch hour had no idea what to do...looked like a deer caught in headlights...

So I come to the rescue...ask if everything is okay...and she motions to "drunk girl" (as we so fondly call her now)...and whispered...I think there is something wrong with her...I immediately smelt the alcohol and told the scared straight young student to call our HR manager...at this point...security comes off the elevator...and see "drunk girl" and ask if she's okay and say she took a pretty hard fall on the stairs...an ambulance was called...she looked so ill...I even wonder if she had alcohol poisoning...but like...who does that? 2nd day on the job???

The kicker it was an early (out of work at 3:00) Friday...this was noonish...she had 2 hours...and even better...it was the Friday before the September long weekend...so to drunk girl I say...2 freakin' hours...that's all you had to wait and then you could have gotten so smashed...and not have been on company time...

Wednesday, June 9, 2010

Tuesday, June 8, 2010

Kids and Sports...

So I don't know if I mentioned before that this season of the boy playing baseball is our first experience with sports. I was never one to push the boy into anything...just gently inquire and up till this year he was not interested in joining any sports. Having been a child that was forced into dance lessons long after I was completely 'over' them...I was determined never to push the boy into something he wasn't really interested in...not to mention the waste in money if I couldn't convince him to attend...

Anyway...I've just got to rant here a bit about our coach...the man never speaks...is obviously painfully shy...so I really try not to fault him and us other parents have really tried to pick up the slack by yelling the plays to the kids as they go...who knew 8/9 year old kids had no clue how the rules of the game work...actually who knew that most of us adults didn't even know...okay maybe that's just the women lol (but 6 weeks in...I think we're all getting it!). But the kicker is how disorganized he is. We found out last night that the kids have a tournament this Saturday...that will be 3 games back to back and a total of about 6 hours...wow! We had already planned to attend Family Fun Day at the boy's daycare so he's less than thrilled.

Please pray we at least have sunshine on Saturday...if I'm spending 6 hours outside I want it to be sunny and warm!

Tuesday, June 1, 2010

And now on to...

June! I find lately I just have no time for blogging...I'm sorry my dear readers but life has taken over...lol.

The month of May was busy busy busy...

First we had Mother's Day, then the boy's birthday, the boyfriend and I had our anniversary...and mix in there working fulltime and baseball 2 nights a week.

This month shall be much calmer...we have the boyfriend's birthday next week and the end of the boy's baseball season.

One month from today and I start 2 weeks of vacation and boy do I need it! I'm hoping to spend a good majority of it camping since we haven't had a chance to get away from the city much at all yet.

So that's where I've been...I hope to get into a more regular routine this month...if nothing more I should at least start posting a regular Wordless Wednesday...geesh how hard is it to post a picture???

Monday, May 10, 2010

Mothers Day

I hope everyone had a great one!

The boy made me the cutest little flower petal card that says the following:

I love you because:

You are nice to me

You play games with me

You always keep your promises

You give me food to eat

Isn't he the cutest?!?! I sure think so!

He also made me breakfast in bed...and without the boyfriend around to help (sadly he had to work all day)...best toaster pancakes and milk I've ever tasted.

Now if you'll excuse me...I must finish frosting 26 cupcakes...and then I must get to wrapping a certain boy's birthday presents since the big day is TOMORROW...how do I have a 9 year old??? That time just flew on by...all 9 years of it...

Saturday, May 8, 2010

Here One Day...Gone The Next...

I don't mean to grab your attention by being so morbid on this fine Saturday afternoon...but something in my life is consuming me and I figure what better place to get out my feelings than this here blog...after all it is a diary of sorts at times.

Last week was very emotional...it started off great...but early Wednesday morning we got an email at work that one of our co-workers had passed away...it was shocking nonetheless as this woman was young (23 years old) and appeared healthy...but our administration staff was tight lipped and would not give any further details. That led the rest of us to wait and wonder what the heck was going on...she was new to our office beginning there in early March...but had made a couple of friends that said she hadn't been to work since Friday and the last time anyone had contact with her was Saturday evening...

So being the women we are...the majority of us searched the paper for car accidents or anything of the sort...even her obituary was nowhere to be found...what we did come across can only be described as shocking...there was a suspicious death in a condo of a young woman in her mid-20s...we all hoped and prayed this was not our co-worker...but after we returned from lunch our worst fears were confirmed...the media had named our co-worker and also described her gruesome murder...she was stabbed in the back - I can't get the mental image out of my head and can't stop thinking about how scared she must have been...not to mention the fact that because she lives alone had our human resources manager not contacted her family she may have not been found for a very long time...

They finally made an arrest yesterday - turns out the family is pretty twisted and she had a crazy uncle (not blood) that seemed obsessed with her...she even had a retraining order against him that recently expired...I can't help but think that our justice system failed her...this poor girl...she was so sweet and always had a smile on her face...I can't even walk past her desk without getting a knot in my throat each and every time...

I wish I had taken the time to get to know her better...she helped me out on numerous occasions in her short time at our office and I can definitely say that although she wasn't there for a long time she will be missed...we are all changed in that we know not to take each day for granted...here today gone tomorrow...it's a sad reality to have to face...

Monday, May 3, 2010

The Month of May

It's been so long since I've blogged...that seems to be the way I start every post lately, isn't it?

I miss you all so much and hope to get back to regular blogging and reading all of your blogs very soon. Work has been busy...home has been busy...when something has got to give (unfortunately) it's usually blogging. But I miss reading all about you and your families!

We are in the beginning of a new month...a very special month for me. The boy was born this month and will have his 9th birthday in just 8 short days...where does the time go?!?!

The very next day (May 12th) will mark 3 years since the day I met the boyfriend...3 years...in some senses it feels like we've been 'an old married couple' for years and in other senses it's like we are in our first few months of dating. I love that he still gives me butterflies...and that we make each other laugh...we both laughed so hard the other night...he really is my very best friend!

The start of this month also means the start of the boy's baseball season...unfortunately after having summer like temps since mid-March we are back to cold and rain...and maybe even snow...NOOOOOOOOOOO say it ain't so...needless to say his very first baseball game scheduled for tonight will likely be cancelled...such is life...

Thursday, April 8, 2010

Writers Workshop - Fear

Mama's Losin' It

The Prompts:

1.) Baby fever is in the air. Describe what you would do differently as a first time mom.
2.) What book captured your heart? Write about why the first book you loved is the first book you loved.
3.) Who is a bird-brain? Think about all the birds you’ve seen–from songbirds to hunters. Compare one or more people you know to different types of birds in a piece of writing.
4.) Why do we need 26? If you could change the alphabet, what would you do? Add? Subtract? Combine? Simplify? Write about it.
5.) Where does that fear come from? Write about something that frightens you that other people might find ridiculous. Write about it in a poem, a story, or whatever.

It's been awhile since I've done Mamakat's Writer's workshop...heck it's been awhile since I've blogged anything of real substance, right? I've even lost followers....oopsie...

Anyway, today I'm going with No. 5. Do you want to know what I'm scared of??? Well besides the obvious...someone I love dying, etc...the thing that scares me most is BIRDS...any and all kinds...big ones, small ones...you name it I don't like it!

I've grown up around pet birds...though we never had one at our house - my Uncle, that we visited quite often, had many...not to mention sperm donor who I dated for 3 years...yeah his parents had several 'house birds' as they called them. And I guess those 2 houses could very well be where my fear started...you see both families would let their birds fly around the house and they'd 'relieve themselves' where ever they saw fit...NASTY!!!! Not to mention they'd come flying at you out of nowhere and scare the bejeezus out of you...or well...me anyway!!!

Maybe it's a mutual hatred...because they seem to have it 'out for me'.

So what about you...what scares you?

Wednesday, April 7, 2010

Wordless Wednesday - Almost

This is much of what our Easter weekend was spent doing...the boy will be joining our local community club's baseball team this year and he wants to practice everyday until the season starts!

Tuesday, March 30, 2010

Hard...But Very Rewarding...and Other Random Happenings

The boyfriend and I quit smoking 2 weeks ago today...though there have been a couple of slip ups on both our parts I feel overall we are doing fantastic. Most days I don't even have the craving anymore if I just don't think about it. My biggest downfall by far is being around other smokers. It doesn't happen often since the only one I really know that smokes is the boyfriend's mom and she's already agreed that when she comes for Easter dinner on the weekend she'll smoke outside.

In other news, my mom and nephew came for a visit this past weekend. We had a great time and it was nice to have another little one hanging around. The boyfriend was adamant that we just had to keep my nephew cause he was sooooooooooo cute...okay, I get it...he's not a puppy though lol.

I will share some pics of the cutie cousins playing together tomorrow for Wordless Wednesday.

We've had some great weather the past few days and it's starting to feel like Summer already. The boy will be playing baseball for the first time through our community club beginning in just a few weeks, though he plays everyday at daycare when the weather is nice so it's not something totally new...and he's quite good at it...the warmer temps have gotten the boyfriend excited about finding a glove of his own and practising with the boy...so we'll be on the hunt this weekend for some adult size baseball gloves.

I haven't even started thinking about Easter nevermind shopping for it...so I better get on that!

Wednesday, March 17, 2010

Likely the Hardest Thing I've Ever had to Do

The boyfriend and I have decided it's time to quit smoking...I've always been a "light" smoker...as in I smoke less per day than any smoker I know and have even gone days without having one...but the fact of the matter is I always knew I could light up whenever I wanted to and that's what got me through. But a year ago when the boyfriend started smoking (again) I found we were both smoking more and more...and lately it's hard to make ends meet because we are spending so much money on cigarettes...

Smoking for me has always been like a long lost friend...I enjoy it...immensely. I like the taste and the smell and it gives me something to do with my hands. But there are major health risks and I for one want to be around to watch the boy grow old and maybe some day get married and have kids of his own...so I knew quitting smoking was in my/our best interest.

Today is day 2. I've got a cold and a killer sore throat...so I'm sure that is helping things along. But I found yesterday that the only time I really craved a smoke was when I was relaxed and it was late at night...instead I chose to stuff my face full of barbeque peanuts lol. So am I destined to gain a little weight while we jump this hurdle...probably...but I think in the end it will be worth it.

So wish us luck please! The boyfriend is using the patch and I'm going 'cold turkey'.

Tuesday, March 9, 2010


Have you ever sat and reflected on your life? Ever reach a certain age and think to yourself "Am I where I thought I'd be in life by this age?"

I find myself doing that alot lately...perhaps it's the fact that my 30th birthday is fast approaching...perhaps it's the fact that the boy will soon be 9 years old...and I just always thought I'd have accomplished so much more as he grew older.

Don't get me wrong...I am proud of the things I have accomplished in life. I love my job and have definitely chosen the right career path...I also love the boy more than words can ever say and I marvel at how smart he is each and every single day...not to mention he's kind and thoughtful. I love the boyfriend and that will never change regardless of our different views on where our lives are going. We know we'll be together...but will our relationship ever move from where we are today? That question remains unanswered.

But as I watched Molly and Jason (yes the cheesy Bachelor special that I of course had to tune into) wed last night I couldn't help but feel sad...sad for the things I've never experienced in life and maybe never will. I always saw myself with a houseful of children...not just one...though I am grateful for him, there are many that struggle with infertility and never get to have that one child they yearn for. I also always thought I'd be swept away...relationships are full of romance and fun and excitement...they aren't hard...or at least that's what we are led to believe as little girls...

The harsh reality is...I haven't accomplished any of the goals I've had for myself...the boyfriend and I aren't married and as time goes on I wonder if it's just not meant to be that way...it's not a priority for him...this I knew when I met him...so why did I settle?

There are no talks of future children even though I've always wanted more...I mean yes, there is the "maybe someday" sort of talks...but nothing serious...again I wonder when I decided that was okay with me....or is it really...

Yes, some deep thoughts today...bear with me...I hope to sort it all out but the truth is I really feel like I've been jipped...like the plan I had in mind for myself for the past 30 years was stolen from me...like I may always feel like something is missing...it's a struggle somedays to get through life...but I always remind myself that we are happy and healthy and there are some out there that don't even have a roof over their heads or food in their belly...so although I feel at a loss as far as where my life is headed and what my purpose here on earth really is...I do know that I am thankful for what I do have.

Monday, March 1, 2010

Back to Regularly Scheduled Programming

Do you have what the media is referring to as an "olympic hangover" - defined by Urban Dictionary as: A feeling of utter tiredness in the morning hours because of staying up too late watching the Olympics on television.

Let me tell you the past 2 weeks I've stayed up entirely too late watching figure skating, hockey, skiing, snowboarding...you name it...I watched it. It's funny because I've never really gotten into the olympics much before...but having it here in Canada and the boy being right at the age where watching sports is super cool...and well the boyfriend is into it too...I really quite enjoyed watching all the events. It helps that Canada was dominant in winning gold...such a rush of excitement each and every time!

Oh and that hockey game yesterday...this wouldn't be an olympic post without mentioning that...were you on the edge of your seat...biting your nails...heart beating fast...as the game went into overtime??? I know I was! But our Canadian boys showed those American boys just whose sport HOCKEY really is!!!

Oh and I thought it hilarious that in the closing ceremonies something was said along the lines of "well what did you think...Canada was one giant Frozen Tundra?"...in reference to the warm weather we've had in British Columbia...of all the Canadian cities/provinces to pick to host the games they just had to choose the one that doesn't even get winter...unlike here in Winterpeg...

So now that I won't be up all hours of the night watching the games...I hope to get back to regular blogging...but of course tonight I'll be tuning in to the Bachelor as Jake chooses between Vienna and Tenley...I bet it's a great (albeit dramatic) ending to this season...have you seen the magazines at the checkout in your local grocery store??? I caught a glimpse the other day and boy if they're right...well I may just have to quit watching...haha...as if!

Monday, February 15, 2010

The Boy loves his Mama...oh and a few 'isms' too

I hope everyone had a fantastic Valentine's Day. Ours was very low key because the boyfriend was working most of the weekend...but I did get a dozen roses...I may or may not have had to ask for them (romance is not the boyfriend's strong suit lol) and they sure are pretty!!! You see Valentines Day is a nice holiday...but I've spent it alone more years than I've spent it with my special someones...so it's never really been a big deal.

The boy noticed this morning that I didn't get a card OR chocolates for Valentines Day...so he made me his very own card. Here's what it said (spelling mistakes and all!) :

To mom happy holdday love you to the moon and back from your son

p.s. your the bast!

Isn't that adorable? By the way today is a stat holiday here in Manitoba so I have today off work...it's been marvelous lounging around and showering at ohhhhhhh...12:30 lol.

And I'll leave you now with a few 'isms' that I wanted to be sure to jot down...you see my boy says some words incorrectly (yes even at 8 years old) and there is just no correcting him cause he's adamant he's saying the words the right way lol. So here are a few off the top of my head...

Suitcase = Soupcase
Library= Liberry
Valentines = Valentimes

Too cute...I wonder if he'll still pronounce the words that way when he's 35 years old lol.

Wednesday, February 10, 2010

Almost Wordless Wednesday!

Have you missed me??? I hope to get back to regular blogging really soon!

In the meantime I leave you with this pic that I took last week at Family Read night at the boy's school...where Spiderman made an appearance...the kids were star struck! lol.

Almost Wordless Wednesday!

Friday, January 22, 2010

Bzzzzzzzzzzzy Busy Busy!

Here I sit all by myself...the boy just crawled into bed and the boyfriend is working his first overnight. I'm taking this evening to reflect on all the chaotic craziness that has been my life the past month or so!

It's been quite overwhelming...what with the boyfriend's job loss 5 days after Christmas...then the chaos of him job hunting...but thankfully the lord has provided for us and we are going to make it because the boyfriend was only out of work for 2 weeks. It's funny though how life can change in the blink of an eye and be full of worry and stress...isn't it? But I just kept on reminding myself that we will get through this...and you know what we are better off for it. The boyfriend loves his new job and there isn't the stress of witnessing clients being abused as was taking place at his last place of employment (the boyfriend does respite work for mentally challenged individuals)...and as a bonus he's even making more money at this new job...I've been finding myself realizing that God really does work in mysterious ways!

My mom was just here for a week long visit...at times I feel we are very close and then others we seem far away...it's odd really. She values her time with the boy and 'stole' him from me overnight every night this week so he could stay at the fancy hotel with her. I definitely enjoyed the time 'off' and being able to reconnect with the boyfriend..but sometimes I miss that she used to want to spend all her free time with me...guess the boy is just more fun these days! lol. We did get an evening together when we 'accidentally' (read ignored the signs) snuck into the mineral pool at the hotel...apparently it's for spa customers only...as hotel guests we could use the pool and water slide but NOT the mineral spa...haha!

Work has been insane and the weekends even crazier...last weekend I had my extended family over and cooked a turkey...this weekend we have shopping, birthday party (Attending not hosting lol) and lots of cleaning...so boy am I enjoying this quiet time while I can.

Friday, January 15, 2010


Unless you've been living under a rock and never have your tv or radio on...then you've heard about the devastation in Haiti. I am sick over what has happened to so many lives and how the survivors have been effected. This morning on the news I heard that the death toll has reached approximately 50,000 people. 50,000???!!! Can you even wrap your head around that? I know I'm having a hard time.

The boy's school had a fundraiser today and he was determined to wear the flag colours (as the school suggested) blue and red. He also wanted to donate all the money he had being $5.00 that my grandfather gave to him the other night when we all went out for dinner. Every little bit helps! I was so proud of my boy for thinking of others and not himself. What a difference we can make even by just opening our wallets and donating as little as $1.00. If money is tight (as it is in our house with the boyfriend being jobless for 2 weeks) then at least I can open up my mind and heart and pray alot!

I also wanted to update you and all and let you know that the boyfriend did in fact find another job and his first day was today! I'm patiently (okay not so patiently) waiting for him to walk through the door now and let me know how it went.

I hope you all have a great weekend. Love a little bit harder, hug a little bit tighter and smile often!

Monday, January 11, 2010

Friend Makin' Monday - Hairstyles

Amber over at aefilkins is asking the following question:

If you cut your hair tomorrow, what would it look like?

Funny she should ask such a question when I've been having quite the hair dilemma lately...I can't for the life of me decide what I want to do with my hair...but I do know it's time for a change!

I've had short hair before...in fact I have a few pics of the short hair:

Although I liked having short hair and people constantly tell me (when it's short) how great it looks...I prefer having longer hair...like it is now...the pic below is from last Summer...but my hair is much the same today because I've only had it trimmed once or twice since. I like having the option to tie it back...wear it partially up or just wear it down. I like to have it wavy most days but will straighten it when the mood strikes or we're going out.

So I guess if I were to cut my hair tomorrow...I'd likely change it...but not a drastic change. Perhaps just maybe add a little side swept bang to offset my huge forehead! lol. Maybe something like this....

Friday, January 8, 2010

A Little of This and a Little of That

I've been meaning to blog all week but I haven't had any real good topics to blog about...I'm also lacking blogging ambition!

But I wanted to update you all on what's been going on in our lives lately.

First off the boyfriend has had some very interesting job prospects this week...I'm excited that he might actually find a job he enjoys (he hated the way the last company was run and most days it showed) and where he could even make more money (always a bonus)!

I had a little bit of a mini-breakdown the other day...just the stresses of life...but thankfully my two best girls were able to cheer me up and make me feel like the things going on in life really "aren't the end of the world". I tend to blow things up and make myself miserable in the process.

The boy is being an 8 year old boy...he's loving all his new Christmas toys...last week we went and spent his Christmas money (from grandpa) and he decided he wanted zhu zhu pets...can I just tell you how darn annoying they are??? They make a ton of noise lol. But in the end better than a real hamster (which the boyfriend had suggested)...no rodents in my house thankyouverymuch!!!!

Work is going well...but I'd much rather be reading your blogs than busy with actual work...blech. I've been trying to read when I can...but since we have internet explorer at work I can't get to some of your blogs...which may explain my lack of commenting. I will definitely try and get on from home over the weekend to read those blogs I can't access here cause I miss catching up with you all!

Hope everyone has a great weekend...

Oh and you'll be pleased to know that this year I remembered to change the year on my date stamper...unlike last year. lol.

Tuesday, January 5, 2010

Wiis and Miis

So if you have a Wii you know how much fun they are! We have played off and on since Christmas...giving ourselves breaks only when our arms and/or shoulder muscles were too sore to play any longer. Right now we only have a handful of games...but the one we love most is the Wii Sports. I can't wait to get either Wii Play or Wii Resort soon because I hear they are just as fun as the sports.

The boy has made about 100 different Miis on our Wii...the boyfriend and I crack up everytime we play because of the silly names he gives them. So cute!

So I gotta say...definitely...hands down...best Christmas present this year! I love that it gets us interacting as a family...even though the boy seems to think he's WAY better than the boyfriend and I at all the sports games...granted he's had a little more experience...and well...the boyfriend and I have slow reaction time...so tennis and baseball are a little harder than say the bowling (my personal favourite).

So what was your best Christmas present this year?